Cynematik • Cyndi Greening

Thus far, 2008 has been a remarkable year. On Thursday evening, I watched LOST. I loved the preceding “re-cap hour” where they bring everyone up to speed on the LOST mythology. In the re-cap, the narrator says the survivors of Oceanic 815 had the rare opportunity to restart their lives anew. I loved that line. As I make my way in my brand, new transformed life, I relate to this opportunity to discover life again. Choose anew. As I age, I believe more and more that we humans are odd creatures. We do everything we can to make life feel safe and predictable but life is an adventure that has an uncanny knack for doing its own thing when we least expect it.

I don’t know what other people do but I look for signs and portents. That’s right. I look for meaning in the chaos. I look for a guiding hand of divinity.

As I mentioned, Pamela Jo turned 50 last week. I love birthdays for a number of reasons. An odd reason is that I enjoy astrology. It’s an amusing pastime, doing a number of complex calculations to ascertain where the planets were located at one’s birth and finding where they are now. Gauging the planetary relationships and relative influence they have upon on another, that’s where the signs and portents can be found. Every year, I have a solar return chart done to see what the following year is supposed to bring. Friends have always said “you’re such an intelligent, savvy human being, why do you get your chart done?” The illusion of certainty, I say, the illusion of certainty.

So, according to my astrologers (yes, I have more than one), the next two years will be quite significant with a big payoff coming due in two years. (Won’t that be fun? I’m looking forward to it already.) Supposedly, I am learning difficult new things that have been missing from my repertoire of skills. Financing and distribution is what I’m learning, now. The Zambian feature and doc are being finalized and the reviewers have been very positive. So, it is time to complete the process now.

Right now, an important portent and sign I’m seeking is the dollar sign affirming I’m heading in the right direction.